Hello denton! Two more days!

J'irai à Denton dans deux jours, et je suis très heureuse.  Puis, j'ai deux semaines après les cours recommencent.  Donc, j'aurai beaucoup de temps pour faire tous les choses pour ma semestre a Paris: payer SAC $100 et voir mon advisor a la fac française.  J'espère que tout ira bien.  

Encroachment

Ok, so the summer is ending soon and I'm more than a little relieved.  Honestly, I don't think I've had any particularly enjoyable summers lately, they're just not that interesting or relaxing...ever. 

Today I finished "The Outsider" and I must say, it was very thought provoking book.  It's made me evaluate so much, the way I go about things, the way I view and accept the world.  I'm very quickly leaning more and more towards existentialism and idea that pursue meaning in life is futile.  I'd come to the conclusion a few months ago that the main reason behind my dissatisfaction with people, life spawned from the fact my wanting so badly for them to have some kind of meaning.  When I find that they don't, it's new destruction for me.  I've never been able to quite understand it until recently... but maybe the reason I can't find meaning in these things is that they are wholly devoid of it to begin with..? What a concept... when I came to this hypothesis I was so relieved, so contented.  It explains so much as to the way I approach everything in such a frenzied manner... however, I've concluded I won't be so anxious as to take this in completely as truth.  What I will do instead, though, is read some more and analyze and experience and live, after which point I'll be able to make some kind of solid decision.  It is nice to finally feel a little more calmed, although my head is swirling with thoughts. 

I've got a few books on my agenda currently, some of them I haven't gotten yet.  I found The Stranger today at B&N for a reasonable price, so I'll be reading that. Something else I found was French Vogue! Isn't that interesting? I can't believe I found French Vogue in Houston, well, I guess it's not so shocking but... still.  I also found another French magazine that I had to buy.  Got to love those fashion magazines. 

I'll be working from home today, so it'll be a lazy day.  I won't have to get up so early and, thus, am free to linger in sleepless wonder for a few hours before falling back to sleep. Yippee!

Here's my current "to read" list:

The Stranger   A. Camus  DONE

Naked Lunch  W.S. Bourroghs 

The Howling and other poems  A. Ginsberg DONE

Anything by Sartre (Nausea) ALMOST

The Marriage of Heaven and Hell W. Blake 

The Doors of Perception  A. Huxley

Death on the Installment Plan L. F. Celine

Macbook

Well, as my good old Compaq Presario slowly, after two years, moves to the point of uselessness, I'd been thinking more and more about getting something that was both not as heavy and not as crash prone--bringing me to dear old apple.  Now, I've been wanting an Apple computer since the days of the orange and white Apple design.  Soo, after much brooding I made the plunge yesterday, buying the white macbook with base configurations.  So far it's really great... except for the sharp edges...sort of hurts when I rest my wrists on the keyboard as I type.  Either way...it's a beautiful machine. Now I have to get use to how things work--is it just or is there no right clicking?  Also...I want a new background..and other things. OH! I want to get a skin for it too...that would be fun. How I love new laptops. 

Chaque fois...

Chaque fois que je suis allée au travail, je suis en colère car...apparemment, je fait le même chose des autres, mais pour moins d'argents. C'est ridicule! Ça me fait penser aux gens qui payent salaire minimum. Moi, j'ai beaucoup d'expérience, plus que tous les personnes qui travaillent avec moi. C'est stupide.

J'en ai marre. J'en viens au fait où la situation me dégoût. Je sens que cette société exploite moi. Si terrible...

In other news, I have someone I need to contact but I've no idea what to say to him. A while ago I would have been so excited, had so many things to say, but now...I don't know--people are too much to deal with most of the time.

Le week-end

So, if you(or who ever actually reads this) hasn't noticed, I've gotten rather lazy about writing in French. I don't really know why--but I promise I'll get back to it ASAP! Also, I'm fiddling with my blog layout...I like it so far, I just want to add something to the header image.

So, my weekend has been rather boring although I got payed Friday and, after putting money away in my savings and paying on my credit card, have around $150 let to spend(well, take out $30 for bloody gas and I guess it's...not that much). Anyway, yesterday I slept most of the day after battling my mother and father's second hand smoke all day. I had planned to go swimming but it rained, so that was a no go.

I've thus far spent my morning reading other blogs and searching for vegetarian friendly vitamins, which I found--thank goodness! Vegan Hair, skin, and nails. I mostly bought these because I want to impliment a "Make C an 'It' girl" regimin that consists of using healthy, organic/natural skin/hair products, eating better, and exercising. So far...I've got the first one down as far has hair goes...everything else needs much work. I assume, though, that it will be better when I'm not being bombarded with unhealthy food and death fumes from cigars and cigarettes. At the moment my head is reeling from it right now.

La Catho: très vite!

One of the things that made me lean towards ICP over La Sorbonne was that I'd read accounts of the Sorbonne not being very organized(not saying that's true or not) and, from what I see from the website, it not having a wide range of classes. Moreover, I wasn't sure if my uni would accept it, as it's not actually have enough art history courses for me.

With la Catho I've been pleasantly surprised. I get email replies as quickly as half an hour after I send them. It's amazing, really, because I don't get emails back that quickly from my university! Today I got my username and password(although there was an issue with the u.n. that needs to be resolved) to the university's housing and job listings for students today. When I tried to log in I got some weird error, emailed the lady over the website and got a reply saying that she would need to get IT to look at the error as she never got it before. Sorry, but I think that's great service. That's better response time than I get from people who sit next to me at work...but let's not talk about that.

Late night blogging

After watching have of Les Poupées Russes and losing interest in the second part for now(after looking for French subtitles for the ENTIRE movie and coming to no avail) I've been surfing the net for a good half hour. I suppose I'm looking for something but haven't quite figured it out...

The most annoying thing about the summer for me is the restlessness that arises so quickly. I can't stand too much repetition and boredom, and the métro-boulot-dodo of each day wears thin very quickly. It is, however, easier to get through it all with the knowledge that all the work of the summer is contributing to la Catho and what I hope will be five months of sponteneity and progress.

My interest in the German language has been sparked since watching Der Kaiser und die Kaiserin. In high school I went through a stint of learning as much German and Japanese as I could(in regard to German, it was a lot). So now when I look at beginner's German lessons all the technicalities that would have annoyed me to no end seem so easy to understand and remember. I was contemplating taking a German course at uni but I think I'll go it alone and then study abroad the summer I graduate in Germany. I say "study abroad" because it seems there are a lot more scholarships, grants, fellowships, etc. for studying in Germany versus France. Oh well, I still love French immensely. :)